Lina's Dream

I firmly believe that EVERYTHING happens for a reason, every event in our lives, every unanswered prayer, every dream placed in our hearts and ever person we encounter, it all has a purpose. Well upon beginning my freshman year of college God had some people walk into my life and they were an answer to my prayers, among these special people was my dear friend Lina who has given me the honor of sharing an incredible dream she had just a few nights ago. I must start by telling you that Lina’s grandfather has recently gotten sick and she has had to painfully come to terms with completely trusting God with the life of one of the most important men in her life. So a few nights ago Lina had a dream that began with a beautiful daytime scene with her family, soon to be interrupted by her father telling her to come quick because her grandfather had just passed away. Family and loving boyfriend by her side Lina ends up and her grandfathers house and as her family is deep in conversation Lina, out of the corner of her eye sees something flash across the hallway, she turns to her brother and asks if he saw the same thing. As Lina gets closer she sees her grandfather, confused she asks what’s wrong with him, “What happened, how are you here, they told me you died?!”, he frantically scrambles as if he forgot something and is a hurry to get somewhere hardly acknowledging her presence. As she pushes him for an explanation he says, ‘“Lina I can’t talk I have to hurry. He’s here.”, still confused Lina realizes he is only speaking to her, no one around is aware of the conversation. But again he says, “I have to go, He’s here”, now realizing what he means Lina can tell that her grandfather isn’t scared or worried or hanging on to time, but rather he was eager and willing and ready for what he seemed to know was awaiting him. As he approaches the door Lina opens it, and can see a light that gives her peace in the certainty of knowing just who was waiting and where they were going. All of our times will come eventually, it’s an inevitably beautiful part of God’s plan. Our lives have a purpose, there’s a reason behind every moment we live and every breath we take but sooner or later we take our last breath and God calls us home, in a way that I hope and imagine is a lot like Lina’s dream.

Find Me Under The Moon,

B.

Immensity

One of my favorite places to be is standing at the edge of immensity where the waves kiss the shore and and the seagulls soar. I cant help but stand in awe of the marvelous majesty my Father in Heaven has created. Looking out into the vast blue waters and coming to the realization that He knows every drop of water and every grain of sand beneath my feet, I am left with no words to comprehend the wondrous Creator of this incredible place. I close my eyes for a moment and I can physically feel His radiance with every warm ray of sunlight that shines on my cheek. He is all around me and yet still within me. This is the place where I most palpably feel His presence and visibly see His marvelous masterpiece. This is where it becomes too much to try to understand and where I must simply soak in the immensity that is my God.

Find Me Under The Moon,

B.

The Greatest Love Story

      I have fallen in love once in my life and I know that I will continue falling every day of my life. When I was thirteen years old I fell so incredibly deeply in love with my God. There will forever be an ache in my heart for the love I have for my one true Father. His love for me will never be something that I earned and thank goodness because I sure didn't earn it. It will never be something that I deserve and thank goodness because I sure don’t deserve it. But I didn’t have to earn it and I don’t have to deserve it, no one will ever be able to love me the way that God loves me. It is overwhelming and humbling that I am someone that God loves despite all the unworthy things I do, no matter how many mistakes I could ever make or times I turn away from Him, His love will never fade.
I am in such awe of Him, in all of His mystery and majesty I long for His embrace, I hope to live a life that allows me to meet Him face to face one day and cling to Him so tightly that I’ll feel it for all of eternity. I know that He holds me now as I spend the time He’s allowed me here on this earth, in the times I need Him most, when I am so desperate for His presence I know that He holds me and I cling to these moments until the day we meet.
I heard His call, so clearly one night, in a room full of hundreds of people worshiping and adoring Him and yet as I closed my eyes I was no longer in that room full of hundreds of People. My Father sent me to His Son in the middle of the Ocean, In a position that He had Peter in long ago, I now stood. Afraid yet longing for more I spoke to Jesus in a way I never had before, so honest and so present I knew that on this night I would give my life to The Lord and Follow the Son he sent to us. I knew it would not be easy but I opened my heart so wide to the will of Lord and I said yes. Just Like Peter did long before me, I took that first step and it has not been easy but it has been worth it. Even when I turn my eyes and start to sink  and drown Jesus waits patiently for my returning gaze and pulls me out. 

He offers His all to me day after day and longs for more of me with every moment I live. He is my favorite person to spend time with. I listen for His voice in everything I do, whether it be a screaming cry or a silent whisper I never want to miss a word He has for me. I do not know what His will has in store for me but I hope and pray that if I am to love and spend my life with another person that he will be as deeply in love with My God as I am and accompany me in this journey of discipleship until its time for us to go meet Him together! My God loved me before anyone else, He was the first and last and I will only fall deeper and deeper with every moment that passes. It is the most beautiful and true love that I have ever and will ever know.

Find Me Under The Moon,

B. 

Amber Dawn

It was a fairytale. My childhood was an absolute fairytale. It seemed like nothing bad would ever happen, the spirit of my 4 year old self is one I find myself yearning to have back quite often. The world seemed like such a big and beautiful place, I didn’t know sadness or pain or heartbreak. I look at this picture of myself in the backyard of the house I grew up in and my heart fills with joy and I can close my eyes and be back in that moment spinning in circles with my face turned up to the sky without a care in the world. Everything was so perfect. 

Find Me Under The Moon,

B.