The Greatest Love Story

      I have fallen in love once in my life and I know that I will continue falling every day of my life. When I was thirteen years old I fell so incredibly deeply in love with my God. There will forever be an ache in my heart for the love I have for my one true Father. His love for me will never be something that I earned and thank goodness because I sure didn't earn it. It will never be something that I deserve and thank goodness because I sure don’t deserve it. But I didn’t have to earn it and I don’t have to deserve it, no one will ever be able to love me the way that God loves me. It is overwhelming and humbling that I am someone that God loves despite all the unworthy things I do, no matter how many mistakes I could ever make or times I turn away from Him, His love will never fade.
I am in such awe of Him, in all of His mystery and majesty I long for His embrace, I hope to live a life that allows me to meet Him face to face one day and cling to Him so tightly that I’ll feel it for all of eternity. I know that He holds me now as I spend the time He’s allowed me here on this earth, in the times I need Him most, when I am so desperate for His presence I know that He holds me and I cling to these moments until the day we meet.
I heard His call, so clearly one night, in a room full of hundreds of people worshiping and adoring Him and yet as I closed my eyes I was no longer in that room full of hundreds of People. My Father sent me to His Son in the middle of the Ocean, In a position that He had Peter in long ago, I now stood. Afraid yet longing for more I spoke to Jesus in a way I never had before, so honest and so present I knew that on this night I would give my life to The Lord and Follow the Son he sent to us. I knew it would not be easy but I opened my heart so wide to the will of Lord and I said yes. Just Like Peter did long before me, I took that first step and it has not been easy but it has been worth it. Even when I turn my eyes and start to sink  and drown Jesus waits patiently for my returning gaze and pulls me out. 

He offers His all to me day after day and longs for more of me with every moment I live. He is my favorite person to spend time with. I listen for His voice in everything I do, whether it be a screaming cry or a silent whisper I never want to miss a word He has for me. I do not know what His will has in store for me but I hope and pray that if I am to love and spend my life with another person that he will be as deeply in love with My God as I am and accompany me in this journey of discipleship until its time for us to go meet Him together! My God loved me before anyone else, He was the first and last and I will only fall deeper and deeper with every moment that passes. It is the most beautiful and true love that I have ever and will ever know.

Find Me Under The Moon,

B. 

Amber Dawn

It was a fairytale. My childhood was an absolute fairytale. It seemed like nothing bad would ever happen, the spirit of my 4 year old self is one I find myself yearning to have back quite often. The world seemed like such a big and beautiful place, I didn’t know sadness or pain or heartbreak. I look at this picture of myself in the backyard of the house I grew up in and my heart fills with joy and I can close my eyes and be back in that moment spinning in circles with my face turned up to the sky without a care in the world. Everything was so perfect. 

Find Me Under The Moon,

B.